Night time reflections. I was feeling boosted this morning, I remembered I had business diploma and added it to my CV. I was looking up amenity kits by airlines and I was in general feeling good especially the sun is out. I also looked up labs for rent. 

This evening I was working on an grant application and I finished most of it. I just need to brush up my artist CV and then I should be good to go. 

Then I went on tiktok and started looking at health and wellness stores, the engagement and their pages, it was all looking a tad dry. Then I looked up Irish wellness stores and there was a lot of competition with well established brands. 

That's been a bit discouraging. What will I bring to the space that's different? I guess my travel offering is unique and I have written health curator in my notes somewhere. 

I don't know I don't have a clear strategy. I don't know whether it's worth pouring so much energy into. I do want to be a social enterprise that supports people with chronic illness especially if they need alternative treatments. I also would love to sell masks and purifiers. I wonder if I'm putting effort that should go towards my art into something else. 

I told my sibling success scares me. Am I putting another barrier between myself and living off my art?

Do I need to be realistic or do I need to back myself? 

Uncertainty fills me. I need to launch this blog and get on my zoom regarding my virtual photography exhibition. 

This life is challenging.