I had an interview yesterday. I applied to paint electric boxes the day before. I'm looking at a film bursary today and I have an interview in the afternoon. 

Also it's Pride month. And I'm not feeling happy. 

I feel a bit disconnected from my friends for some reason. 

I'm worried about burn out and I feel like I'm taking up all the air in O Collective. 

And I'm avoidant AF so I'm struggling to say and be vulnerable. In fact I actually shared on socials which is not a good sign for me. 

But in good news my sibling has secured self employed work and I'm so proud of them. 

So there are two remote jobs where the recruiter has reached out to me and I'm actually excited about the roles. Sunday I was looking into my art, Monday I'm getting excited about corporate jobs, Tuesday we finish Seabed and start looking at film festivals to submit to and I follow up with jobseekers. 

They asked me for so much at job seekers and I need to email my business partner to get some of the documents. 

Lemme email and add the list in here:

1. 12 months up to date financial statements for all accounts held in your name including business accounts - damnnnn

2. Itemised Profit & Loss for the previous tax year. - what even is this??

3. Your most recent notice of tax assessment - okay I think I know where to get this. 

4. Your profit & loss account for previous 12 months - is this not the same as number 2??

5. UP1f issued by email - a form I am yet to open 

6. (skipped)

7. (skipped)

8. Please complete the HRC module available to you on your MyWelfare account

And it's gatta be all sent in 14 days. Yikes. 

I spoke to a recruiter yesterday and she was saying how I have plenty of time but it really don't feel like that. 

Also I had to pay 600€ to Revenue yesterday meanwhile the 500€ they owe me I have to wait till October. 

Okay that's it for now. 

Well actually I have grief circle this evening. 

I got my first invitation to speak to a hiring manager and I found out that a contract role I applied for is now a permanent role and I have to apply directly (I won't).

I went to the market to do some research and spoke to a vendor. If there's space for me I'd love to do it. 

I applied to two jobs over the weekend. 

I been working on a story to submit to RTE. So I haven't been documenting my unemployment journey as much. In a few days it will be day 20 and I'll be a third way through my notice. I am yet to speak with a hiring manager and that's freaking out a bit. 

There's 22 working days in May and I'm working 21 days because it's my second to last paycheck from my current job. 

I was out in my hammock today, went to get groceries and then applied for a job. I took a break from scheduling posts on the Olólùfẹ́ Collective site to write this. 

I need to :

Ask for an invoice 

Submit my tax return 

Write an ending for my story

Start my citizenship application 

Hmmmm yesterday I had a technical interview that put me in a terrible mood. The interviewer was extremely hostile, dismissive and uninterested. 

And today I started my period. 

Tomorrow I have another interview. But I haven't had any more calls, I had an email from a recruiter but no more calls for interviews or anything about going to the next stage of meeting with hiring managers. 

I also did a draft of an information sheet for the open mic we want to have for pride. Also I'm publishing my poems on Olólùfẹ́ Collective. I also have a tiktok to edit. 

I'm feeling annoyed, it was blue skies today and I didn't go out to enjoy it. 

I feel weird. I'm not happy.