Trigger warning: suicidal ideation
You keep me alive
I don't want to survive
Its death without you
No grieving
No funeral
Its death without you
Only here because you are.
If you go
Its death without you
No sad songs,
No therapy
Its death without you
Life doesn't go on
Its death without you
Whatever is on the other side
We'll find out
This world is too ugly without you
Its death without you
Theres one option
Theres only death without you
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July 2026 update - I wrote this about my sister years ago when we were both struggling with suicidal ideation. We are in A&E today due to her rapidly declining mental health. My mental health is declining as well.
She wants to live and I'm ready to die.
But there's no me without her. And I won't think twice about it. Energy never dies.
This is the playlist that was shared during the listening party, there were so many more track I wanted to include but the listening party was only 1 hour long and I wanted to showcase my short film "Sunday morning voice note to Maggie the dancer".
I do also have a deluxe playlist with twice as many songs, which I will be sharing very soon.
Omítórera Listening Party Playlist - Tidal Link
Heavy (But Not In Wait) - L'Rain
Earth's Castaways - Iniko
Muva Earfff - Camiii
Don't Feel Real - Aka Kelzz
Omitorera - Love Builder of Worlds (Available to stream Wed 29th July 2026)
Never Ending - Lady Donli
Nterini - Fatoumata Diawara
London - Tomi Agape
Come We Bill Ehh - Midas the Jagaban
Things We Do for Love - Sticky, Kele Le Roc
Burden (Love, Builder of Worlds Mix) - Anusha
Baddies - SadBoi
MON BÉBÉE - Theodora, Brazy
Off Wiv Ya Headz - Nia Archives
Omitorera - Love Builder of Worlds (Available to stream Wed 29th July 2026)
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Image description: Singles artwork for Omítórera which is a mixed media work that features a pixel image self portrait of artist Love, Builder of Worlds from behind, they are wearing a yellow towel, theres a purple heart on their back and gold hair accessories in their semi-freeform mowhawk locs. The background is a sunset picture of Dublin bay.
So I was invited to share my philosophy and my approach to my art practice by Wren of the Magic Moments with Music podcast. I really had such a great time pondering Omítórera my song offering to Osun. I discuss the importance of community, ancestral veneration, seasons and flow.
I have been watching YouTube more now that I have the time and I'm most drawn to long form content I can primarily listen to. So here's what I've enjoyed lately:
The Future of Natural Hair by Rukiat (43:21)
I loved this video essay because I love history and we were really taken on a historical journey of hair, current trends, valid critiques and then a really well researched guess of the future. I think I have futuristic hair, it's flamboyant af.
THE VICTIMS OF THE KNIFE - Audio Documentary by Rachel Melita (30:01)
I never knew audio documentaries were a thing until Rachel shared her documentary on FGM. This documentary was incredible. Having the women harmed by FGM be the first voices we heard is so important and so worthwhile. Their experiences, their feelings and their voice centred was so impactful. I was a bit hesitant to listen because I hate to hear about people suffering but though the practice and the stories were really unjust and unfortunate, there was a lot of care and gentleness in this documentary.
I'm so happy Rachel Melita used her creativity to widen my perspective and highlight the experiences and perspectives of African women. The organisation that helps former cutters retrain in other skills totally inspired me because it's so easy to demonize and discard people that have been practicing harm but they took a practical and effective method to address a really important element. Because if the cutters are making uniforms they can't cut or teach others to cut and continue the practice. Amazing work, important work, amazing documentary.
Of Flesh & Fear: the Pyramid of Predators - by Tee Noire (02:34:44)
Tee Noire speaks to patriarchy, predators and social hierachy. She takes a deep dive into the things we don't want to speak about and it's extremely important.
Shame is keeping you from the care you deserve | Divination For Liberation Podcast - by Dayna Lynn Nuckolls aka People's Oracle (55:43)
The People's Oracle breaksdown the planets, their movements and how they can impact us collectively and as individuals. There's plenty of sidereal Cancer in the sky and we need to pay attention to our bodies.
BONUS:
Knowledge Beyond Certainty - The Solomon Atah Podcast featuring Dr. Olusegun Morakinyo (01:29:11)
Dr. Morakinyo explains and breaks down the importance of African technology, knowledge production and the significance of Yoruba orisha Eshu in philosophy.
