TLDR: I am sad but productive because I am addicted to working. Shout out to my friends and supporters. Heres a long list of things I have done in 2 weeks. Its not fair I don't have more money and resources. Begging you in the name of the my blog Fìfẹ́hànmí share my blog with every single person you have ever breathed near, I need bums on seats. Feel like changing my artist name to "Help Me, I Am Desperate to Build New Worlds, We Know We Can't Keep Living Like This". This post is open to the public.
The conclusion of this reflection and art documentation practice is an idea : Can all the artists in here please gift my blog something artist? My blog is one years old next week. Can yous make something about my blog or any art projects, any poems you like, any essays, and short videos or graphics you rock with and share the link in the comments of this post or message me it on the blog platform? And then I will share it on my blog, add image description and keep the post free so that your work can be published in a blog for your cv if you need something for your cv? (If you create a video it can't be public due to server limitation)
Also this is my CV, I am looking to do more artwork and I am crowdfunding my life, so I can keep sharing my art mostly for free. I am asking for emails, I am not interested in algorithms and selling cheap/unethical/ultra expensive luxury muck so I can keep paying my bills. So I am crowdfunding it and I really really really need help. I am shaking in my boots a lil bit I been working since I was 16. I need you to support me the way billionaires support AI with our money.
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I been hiding and storing
Messages I been ignoring
The cold and the dark
It reminds that I'm foreign
There's been art I been hoarding
I'm suffering from S.A.D real bad. I'm heartbroken at what I've seen and read, I'm deflated because of social media and I'm tired because I ain't sleeping well.
I'm grateful for my friends because honestly long phone calls with them bring up my spirits. And actually I have a hot chocolate that's hitting the spot rn.
I have been juggin though regardless, I'm trying to kill the boss in me that tells me to go back to work but I'm the child of an immigrant that has also immigrated. I'm in Dublin estranged from my parents and terrified of homelessness. So I keep doing something.
The first 16 days of my sabbatical has included:
Increased posting on all socials available to me - that ended last Sunday though
Promoting a podcast I animated
Attending a virtual event on becoming an Access Coordinator
Setting up an IMBD for Seabed (2026)
Applying for more film festivals
Sending my demo to my mixing engineer
Planning to release a song
Creating single artwork for the song
Downloading my stems for my engineer
Attending an art group crit
Contacting old friends, acquaintances and mutuals about my blog
Completing my first ever art commission: say hi to Domingos
Image description: A pixel art image of a trendy young African man. He has short locs, he is wearing sunglasses and smiling. He is posed sideways with a sideways peace sign, wearing a grey polo and yellow trousers plus a gold bracelet. There are small hearts surrounding him.
Practicing pixel art more
Begging an film festival for black trans people to waive the fee because we ain't got it
Planning an ADHD article for Olólùfẹ́ Collective
Released a music video for Commuter's Commitment (Mundane Mondays)
Improved my low blood pressure
Wrote a press release
Made a guide on how to download LBW.blog app
And joined two new co-op music platforms Subvert and Mirlo
Made a song about cleaning up my room and did the singles artwork for that as well.
Sharing links and opportunities on my blog
Shared some writing advice for people with ADHD
Wrote a speech begging for support for my blog
Did my tax return
Got 25x more subscribers on my blog compared to this time last month
Recommitted to Yorùbá
Created a virtual photo exhibition
Finished editing another poetry film for my poem "A Collective Preparing"
And I been researching how to make my writing more accessible for people reading my work on their phones
Omg imagine I nearly forgot I found nearly all every single time I have been mentioned online and also O Collective:
https://www.ololufe-collective.art/scared-for-the-climate-press/
https://shoutout.wix.com/so/a4P0hqWUy
https://www.hotpress.com/music/new-irish-songs-to-hear-this-week-197-23072931
https://gusbus.space/smallweb-subway/
https://soundandmusic.org/post/the-sampler-mixtape-153/
https://thef-listmusic.uk/listing/love-builder-of-worlds/
https://azejournal.com/article/2024/12/22/self-expression
https://diyabled.com/love-builder-of-worlds/
https://rockear.co/la-artista-punk-rock-love-builder-of-worlds/
https://callingupjustice.com/ololufe-collective/
I keep telling myself I'm on sabbatical but my addiction to work and my conditioning has got the better of me.
I've done all that in the last two weeks while trying shower regularly, taking care of my disabled heart condition self, taking care of my disabled sibling and taking care of my disabled friends.
And it's wild to me that because I ain't got advertising money, algorithm friendly topics, or the creative will to figure of marketing I'm not being paid a living wage for my art.
Like it's not only money it's resources, I'm grateful for the time but how cool would it be if I had a mentor helping me with any of my art projects? Even a virtual assistant to help me sort out my multiple emails addresses with thousands of email. Someone to help me with marketing, help with social media, help find me free training. Even seeing the books of a small digital artist would be phenomenal.
Anyways I've signed up for a black trans writing group, wish me luck.
I am making this post public please share with your friends and family, share with your co-workers, your ex coworkers, your mutuals, your mums friend, your friend's mum, your sibling, your sorority sisters, your brunch friends, every single Nigerian you have ever come across, every single queer person, every single corporate girlie you know, that bookworm you know, the person deconstructing their religion, everyone that you know is super anti-capitalist, and alllll the people you know that still practice safety, anyone that has ever talked to you about the anglophone genocide in Cameroon, any person that says Tiocfaidh ár lá on a regular basis, anyone that has ever started a subscack, and please please please use it as an excuse to reach out to someone you miss.
