I'm about to be on Near FM 90.3fm to discuss my single "Omítórera"
Tune in now
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I want care I cannot buy
Care that can't be calculated with cash
Care that is dutiful and priceless
Care with compassion regardless of capital
Caring that is sharing
Giving and recieving
Loving and learning
I want care that will cure my despair
Care that comforts
Care that we share
Care that's open, curious and fair
I need all the care I can bare
Dedicated to Neltah 💓
Named after Gift
Trigger warning: suicidal ideation
You keep me alive
I don't want to survive
Its death without you
No grieving
No funeral
Its death without you
Only here because you are.
If you go
Its death without you
No sad songs,
No therapy
Its death without you
Life doesn't go on
Its death without you
Whatever is on the other side
We'll find out
This world is too ugly without you
Its death without you
Theres one option
Theres only death without you
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July 2026 update - I wrote this about my sister years ago when we were both struggling with suicidal ideation. We are in A&E today due to her rapidly declining mental health. My mental health is declining as well.
She wants to live and I'm ready to die.
But there's no me without her. And I won't think twice about it. Energy never dies.
